If He Had Been with Me - Laura Nowlin

If He Had Been with Me

By Laura Nowlin

  • Release Date: 2013-04-02
  • Genre: Romance for Young Adults
Score: 4.5
From 2,353 Ratings


A New York Times Bestseller

*A BookTok Viral Sensation*

An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA romance bestseller is perfect for fans of Colleen Hoover, Jenny Han, and You've Reached Sam.

If he had been with me, everything would have been different…

Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other.

Autumn has her boyfriend Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around.

That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.

But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways…

Captivating and heartbreaking, If He Had Been with Me is perfect for readers looking for:

• Contemporary teen romance books
• Unputdownable & bingeworthy novels
• Complex emotional YA stories
• TikTok Books
• Jenny Han meets Dear Even Hanson
• Colleen Hover fans


  • Great but

    By Jody2077
    I wish they had more time together it felt rushed. Here they just get together and that’s it Something happens that’s the end of the book .
  • amazing

    By airis.rod
    i was hooked in the book from the beginning and i cried my eyes out at the end
  • Wow.

    By alexasavl
    I never thought it would end like this. I was reading this in school and almost broke down into tears. I have never felt more passionate about reading a book. No book will ever hurt me like this one did. I’m omw to buy the second one.
  • my heart…

    By idgafmia420
    the ending to this book should be illegal. i never want to read another book again (except for his pov coming soon).
  • I cried!

    By Jay🤍💜
    This book is so good, I just hated the way it ended. I balled my eyes out for at least 10 minutes and I’m still sad. I definitely recommend!
  • Amazing

    By Yusmuss
    Never cried like this before 😭 this book broke my soul!
  • Ehhh depends

    By ttmyrareads
    Mmmm kind of a slow but fast paced book. It made me feel things but then at the end I just— cause yeah.
  • WHY.

    By barbsg22
    okay why does everyone have to RUIN the book in the reviews. thanks a lot.
  • Recommended

    By Elizabeth, Meghan, Markle
    Okay, if you like being emotional and crying for some reason at 2 am in the morning then this book is for you I absolutely loved this book. I don’t care what anybody says this book was a masterpiece Finn should not have died. She deserved to be with autumn.
  • It was okay.

    By OCEMSanh
    Sad book, I thought the writing style was a little off for me. But it was an okay. Good.